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Day 2

DAY 2 
I get up early and get ready, i know i have a lot to do........take my daughter to school and set off on the motorway to find the Crown Court in Manchester.....so i'm prepared for tomorrow as its my turn to give evidence..........driving around the one way system n getting lost a lot lol which isn't anything untoward for me.  After 2 hours i find it and manage to see where i can park etc................its weird i'm so remarkably calm.really ready for tomorrow........convinced the truth will out and i set off home..........
 
I get home have a quick drink and set off to have my nails done......green of course my favourite colour....weird I may be worried bout the state of my nails but i'm like that and it takes my mind of tomorrow..........
 
I then have a crafty sunbed......its raining cats and dogs here and the sun makes me feel happier....not to mention browner lol
 
Finally back home and i get the urge to txt my police officer in charge of my case...i know she's in court right now but i'm just checking i'm definately in tomorrow and its not been put back till Thursday or Friday like she said it may be...............and i get a call straight back.................
 
."Hi jo.........its me  "Rebecca" just to let you know he's pleaded guilty to all of the charges against you and to some but not all against the other girls........so the trial has ended, you wont need to come to court and he's remanded in custody until sentencing around about March"............
 
Gobsmacked and smiling at the same time..........i'm happy but not ecstatic...its finally over after 2.5 years of waiting to get to court...........the most important thing to me is not how long he serves behind bars but that he's admitted he's guilty for what he did to me and regardless of how much time behind bars he spends now he's admitted his guilt....took it of me and owned and accepted it himself. He will now have time to think about what he has done and come to terms with this within himself ......and I know this is not going to be easy.......for all of us who know, guilt can do crazy things to us...turn us inside out........and now he will have a lot to come to terms with ...alot to admit to both himself, to his family and friends and to other prisoners!...not a nice thing to admit to..that you sexually assaulted and attacked 8 women included 2 under 16!............just like i've had to do....just like the other girls have all had to do.....for over 2.5 - 3 years since it all came to be in the hands of the police.......I am not a vindictive girl and i have never wished harm on anyone regardless of what has ever been done to me and im not about to start now...........i do not hate him in fact i pity him and i know many people would not agree with me for that statement but i stand by it none the less..............we are all capable of doing wrong in this life, some much worse than others, and in some dreadful cases where people get away with such terrible crimes on a technicality,  make no mistake one way or another we will all have to atone for it.....whether you call this karma or justice................
 
Truth is like a mirror..........when you come from a place of truth and that place dwells within YOU.....YOU cannot fail to materialise the TRUTH all around YOU...............

5 Comments to Day 2:

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JOJO on 19 May 2013 13:08
thank you so much for your support, i really appreciate it, as you can appreciate i went and have been through a variety of emotions during the almost 3 years since it happened and the time it took to get to court and now im in a much stronger place and ready to help others...............many people feel you have to have a "correct" set of emotions when you have been through such an ordeal but i am here to say "NO" there is no correct way to show your emotion when something like this happens.........for me i use humour it gets me through everything and i have learnt, only through going through this and much more in my life, to be able to seperate and dis-attach myself from the emotion so i dont fuel it.......yes it has changed me beyond a doubt but id like to say for the better...........i'm a much better person now than i feel i could ever have been, for now i understand other peoples pain and depth of emotions and can empathise with them and i still have a lot to learn.............thank you so much once again for your very kind words and i wish you all the love in the world xx


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JOJO on 19 May 2013 13:27
thank you so much for your very kind words and support, they are very much appreciated and thank you for recommending this site to your friends.......i still have much to add and much to say both on here and in my books but it will come out..........every word we utter or write or hear is healing and we owe it to ourselves to be the TRUTH and to live our TRUTH even if other people find it hard to hear...it is dangerous to damage our souls by refusing to admit our pain, we spend a lifetime trying to cover up our feelings so no one really knows how we feel or that they hurt us, this isnt healing.............its delaying..........i know i learnt the hard way....now.....i just want to speak my TRUTH and the way i deal with things may not be everyones way but it is my way and it works for me....being honest about my experiences has been healing for me in a way nothing else has worked before and i want and encourage this in everyone.........the Journey really does start within .............x thank you so much for connecting with me and i wish you much love and healing in your life x


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